so marching season is over, right? with football comes the torcher of marching band and when it ends so does the other, right? okay, then why the hell is the freakkin ballad to our show so stuck in my head?!? Sure, it's pretty, sure we woodwinds have a really pretty part, but why is it stuck in my head now, some 3 months after we stopped playing it?!? sigh... but that song was the worst one to march to ever! especially at the end, because i have no periferal vision, so i was guiding to a person who appearantly was always wrong... which basically means the bitch who was behind me (somehow the two people who hated me the most were always right near me in the formations...) was always yelling at me... I'm just a freshman, people!!! okay. I'm done with the ranting about the past. it just still pisses me off that I had never even seen a marching band before and they wanted me to do as well as (or in one of the two bitches' case better than) them, who had seen marching bands when they were in middle school, and had marched for two or three years already! grahh!!! :angry: okay, now i'm really done.

so anyways... how did i get started on that? oh well... so yeah at church we're doing discussions on free will and the trinity... well, since i don't beleive that there can be both free will and predestination at the same time, we seem to have a bit of a problem. see, no one in our youth group (which consists of about oh, i'd say 10 people) is really what you'd call a "strong christian". mostly because 50% don't have "christian parents" and they just come because there friends came and wanted some company, and the other 50% of us just don't give a shit... so the youth pastor is just now figuring out that we either come cause we have to or because our friends are there. so everyone either has no opinion on any of this, or needs to be explained all of this, or like me, doesn't beleive in it. so poor jonathon (our youth pastor) seems to have quite a job on his hands. mostly because three of us (me, AJ, and Cameron [who seem to be the most intelligent people in that group]) seem to hinder every foothold he can possibly get with contradictory reasoning. well, i guess that's just too bad, i mean, it's his beleifs and it may very well be the others' beleifs, but i want to express my opinion about it so that the others know that there is other ways to think about shit like that.

i think my journal is going to end up like 's, because i'm starting to see where she comes from, and i am wondering some different things than she does usually.

please comment with your opinion. and i would like to have at least one "christian" post so i can effectively see all sides of this topic. thankees!